Tiny bit scared

Just a small post to get my thoughts and feeling out and hopefully forgotten! 

I am going in tomorrow for an outpatient surgery. I have never been put to sleep or had any kind of surgery other than having my wisdom teeth removed!  At first I was kind of freaked out over the fact of being put to sleep. Then it turned into being intubated.  That thought didn't hit me until I was doing my pre-op information and they mentioned it.  UMM guess I never thought about the fact that when you are put to sleep you would have to be intubated..haha!  Now the fears run anywhere from "What if the anesthesia doesn't work and I can feel everything?" to the typical "What if I don't wake up!"  I know these are general fears before any type of surgery so I am dealing with it. 

I know that I am blessed with family that is going with me, friends that are helping with the kids, friends and family that are keeping me in their thoughts and prayers, and friends and family that are stopping by to check on me.  Who could ask for anything better?

I think the hardest part so far has been putting my kids to sleep tonight and knowing that tomorrow I will not be able to pick my kiddos up to give them their good night hugs and kisses or put my son in his crib.  At least I will be able to have them sit in my lap (depending on pain level) and I can love on them that way! 

Now comes the fun part...staying up late(r) so I can eat something tonight!!  I don't go in until late in the morning and I still can't eat anything after midnight!  WHAT????  Do they not realize that one of the first things I do in the morning is have my caffeine?  How in the world am I supposed to function when I can't do that?  Hopefully the nerves and anxiety will counteract the hunger and thirst! 

Ok that is all.  Now I am off to stuff my face so I won't starve in the morning!